In Love with Anthony

I am in love with my coworker, Anthony. I work at this communications company with him and we started around the same time about three years ago. He and I both are assistants to a superior at the company for two different suppliers, but our desks are about 20 feet apart. I thought he was adorable when we first met. He has short brown hair with a mind of its own and hazel brown eyes. He is not very tall at about 5?7 but he has muscles to make up for it. He is the image of Green Day and Journey slapped together. He is so thoughtful sometimes and he is very trustworthy, a hard trait to find these days. Just to paint a picture I am about 5?5 with long light brown hair and brown eyes. My body isn?t amazing but I have a 36B cup size and a round ass to balance. I weigh about 125 pounds on a good day and am fairly thin for the most part. Back to Anthony! We have been friends since he first started at the company. We hang out after work and grab a drink at the bar sometimes or just kocaeli escort walk around the building. We talk all the time. He has such a great personality that it never gets boring with him. We?ve had our moments every now and then of serious flirting but I always kept my feelings to myself because I didn?t want to lose his friendship or make things weird. There was one specific night that we went out on a Friday after work and got a few drinks. Well, that was the intention anyways. We ended up getting drunk and stumbling so he offered to walk me home. We got up to the door of my apartment and were saying goodnight. He leaned forward and kissed me on the lips! I was drunk but still knew a kiss when I got one. He simply turned around and left after though. I was really confused and didn?t know what to think. I just stumbled off the bed thinking to myself, ?You?re not going to even remember this in the morning? Next morning came around and I still remembered. I kocaeli escort bayan remembered how it felt and how good it was. I remembered everything about it. I didn?t want to mention anything in case he didn?t remember so I told myself, ?If he doesn?t ask you then he doesn?t remember.? I got into work on Monday morning and saw him at his desk and he just smiled and waved asking how the rest of my weekend was. My first thought was, ?He must not remember otherwise that would have been his first question.? We got to the end of the day and he still hadn?t asked so I assumed he didn?t remember. Months went by and our friendship continued to grow and remain just friends. I was having a New Year?s party that year and I had invited everyone from work and some friends to come too. I had a full house! Everyone and more showed up, it was a blast. We danced and drank and talked about the past year and everything was amazing! We counted down the last 10 seconds of izmit escort the year and all started hollering when 2011 finally came! I was standing with Anthony and was wondering if he was going to kiss me, but he didn?t. Most of the people left soon after that and then the rest of the guests left shortly after them. All except Anthony. He stayed to help me clean up the mess! And boy was there a mess too, there were cans and bottles and food all over the place. We were talking about all the drunken people dancing and all the other funny events that went on that night while we cleaned it up. We were both really exhausted after that and decided it was good enough. It was about 3 in the morning and he was still kind of drunk so I just told him to spend the night. New Year?s Day is the biggest day for cops to find drunk drivers and all. I have a queen sized bed so I just told him to share it because it wasn?t comfortable on the couch. He agreed and followed me to my room after locking everything up. He went into the bathroom while I changed into my night gown and I let him know when it was OK to come out. He stripped down to his boxers and crawled into bed next to me. Very careful not to touch him I rolled over to face away from him.