A Beautiful Sensual First time

Although, I have been happily married for well over 30 years, I have known from a very young age that I had, and still have, feelings for the male sex but have always been very confused over my true sexuality. My wife and I used to have a good sex life but in recent years this has become almost non existent as she finds it so very difficult these days.

With more or less no sex life now, this set me on a different path in that although I love my wife so much, I need to relieve my own sexual desires. As a result, I started watching porn and increasingly Bi and gay and well as threesome films.

Ultimately, I started to research places that I could attend away from home to satisfy my desires. I have now visited and continue to do so, a number of gay saunas and found this a way of getting my sexual relief. However, I often think back to my first man to man experience. One of which I will never forget and more-so wish it could happen all over again.

Many years ago, I was self employed running my own business. Like a number of businesses, the majority of our work was local. But as the business grew, I decided to get some help. I employed a beautiful young man aged 18. His name is John and he lived locally. At this time, I was approx 22.

John, quite tall, always extremely smart, with nice short light brown hair and with a gorgeous fresh complexion. He always had a nice aftershave on which made him even more attractive. A beautiful boy who I feel could have easily been a male model. Needless to say, he was very pleased when offered the job and couldn't wait to start.

John took to the role easily and after a few months of getting to know each other, I don't know why, but we somehow had a real bond going between us both, almost reading each others mind and becoming more like brothers. Whilst the subject of sex was never brought up, some of his ways led me to believe he might be gay or Bi sexual. I never embarrassed him or quizzed him but I certainly thought he was.

Anyway, A job came into the office involving an overnight stop. Hire van loaded and bags packed, off we set off from Newcastle to the Bristol area. A good number of hours later, we arrived and managed to get unloaded. During unloading, John seemed to pull his back slightly.

"Ok John." I asked.

"I'll be ok." he replied.

It was then off to find accommodation for the night. The B