What The Hell

These are my memories of when our life went off the rails. Lilly and I still had an active social life. A lot of our college friends were still in Sacramento, married and unmarried, and a lot o them liked to host parties, barbecues, and card parties. Lilly and I were still able to go to lots of them. We also discovered The Literacy Project which helps older teenagers and adults develop functional literacy.*Literacy is a continuum from good readers at the college level to being barely able to read. Functional literacy allows adults to function in the adult world. read contracts, a newspaper. A lot of people can?t. We got involved in it while we were in college and continued after we were married.With work, friends and fun, and our literacy commitments, our weekends were pretty busy.A couple of years ago, Allen, Allen Barnes joined The Literacy Project. We?d seen him around some of our friend's gatherings a few times, so we were friendly and helped him figure out how the project worked.*When we saw him next at our friend's place, I noticed he was spending time with Lilly. Nothing inappropriate, until I saw his hand brush Lilly?s breast. Just a brush.*I?d seen other guys do that accidentally, or maybe not. Anyway, I?d noticed him. A few other times I saw him with Lilly, coming out of the house with Lilly?s face flushed.Then in Tim and Bethany's yard, I saw them kissing in an alcove. It certainly was more than a casual greeting kiss. A month later, I saw them again. This time he had his hand cupping her breasts, moving from one to the other. This time the kiss was closer to a lover's kiss.Erotic, yes. Arousing? My cock got hard as I watched. I couldn?t stop watching. Over the next couple of months, I watched them. I kept an eye looking for when they were alone.At Pat?s house, they were alone for several minutes, and Allen was becoming more confident. This time I saw that her blouse was pulled loose from her skirt and his hands wore caressing her tits. Her eyes were closed as he was kissing her and I could hear her making unintelligible sounds in her throat. She loved his kisses and his hands playing with her tits.*I almost came in my pants, looking at them.*I knew I should stop them, but it was so erotic, watching my wife play with him.When we got home, I pushed her against the wall, stripped her, and fucked her.* She was so wet her juices were leaking out of her pussy.We were using Gmail, and it was my business account I had access to her emails plus I was able to get her texts forwarded to my phone.*Nothing happened until two weeks later when we were going to a huge party and barbecue in Tom and Betty Faccini?s yard. It was huge, with wandering paths through the trees and bushes.I got a text that was forwarded from Lilly?s phone ?Meet me where you first let me touch your breasts.? I knew I wanted to watch them there, so I followed Allen.I followed him hiding when he was where three paths joined. He stopped and I was able to hide while watching. When Lilly came she kissed him, definitely a lover?s kiss. Allen pulled her blouse loose from her pants and started touching her tits. When she moved his hands to the buttons on her blouse she said loud enough for me to hear, ?Allen, I want you touching my breasts, please, my blouse, my bra then touch, kiss my breasts, please.?Allen unbuttoned her blouse and removed it, unfastened her bra, bent over, and sucked on her nipple. He started to unbutton her pants when she stopped him. ?No, Allen, not here, not yet. I know what you want. It?s so erotic feeling your lips on my bre ? uh tits. My tits Allen, my tits. yes, you call them my tits. I have tits for you, only you. uh, I can?t go further, not yet ... not here.I could hear him talking to Lilly, ?Your tits feel wonderful in my hands Your pussy will too, I just want to touch you there.? He pulled her tight against his cock and moved her right hand to the button on his pants.*?Touch my cock, at least you can touch me. Lilly, touch my cock. I need to cum. Make me cum and I?ll quit ? I?ll stop trying to fuck you. Uh. today. If you make me cum.?*I saw her hesitate and then unbuttoned his jeans and slowly unzipped them. She looked at what she?d done then resolutely pulled the jeans to the ground and pulled his cock out.*?God Allen, I?m so close? she closed her eyes and started stroking him. ?I ? you, you, come for me.? She knelt and put his cock in her mouth. She pulled out so she could say, "Come, I want your cum. Taste you, taste your cum.?*I saw him stiffen and then he thrust his cock forward and held her head still. His come leaked from her mouth and I could see that she?d climaxed too."That was wonderful. It was awesome and I came too. I?ve decided. I?ll do it. Yes, I?ll do it. I can?t not fuck you, I want Rus Escort İzmir ... your c-cock. Not like this though. I?ll fuck you but not like this. Yes, I?ll cuckold Chris but in a bed. I want your cock in my pussy - my cunt, you call it. That'll make Chris our cuckold. I want you to cum in my mouth again, that makes me your slut. To finish the trifecta I want you to come in my ass.*He pulled her up so he could suck on her tits. Then one hand slipped inside her pants, caressing her mound. He was saying something to her that I couldn?t hear, except ?he?s gone?Watching that, hearing that, made me come. Luckily I was able to get my cock out in time. After they left, I slunk back a different way.I?d just heard Lilly talking about cuckolding me and I came thinking about it. Cheating, the bitch. She?s never let me come in her mouth before. She will tonight, damn it.*I was furious. Cheater, slut, whore, I going to get back at her. I sat near the pool and thought.*What the hell, I could have, I should have said something. I should have said something the first time I saw Allen do anything inappropriate with Lilly. I can still stop it if I tried. I knew what Allen was doing from the beginning. I could have stopped it.I'm picturing Lilly the first time she cuckolds me.She?s naked on our bed, her tits standing up her nipples hard. Is her pussy leaking on the bed as she?s waiting for Allen? God, it is, I know it will be. Damn. My cock is hard. I want to see Allen get ready to fuck her. I?m going to come if I don?t stop.Lilly, Lilly I love you, I don?t want to lose you to Allen. Hell, I don?t know what to do.*I'm scheduled to go to Oakland for two days next week and Lilly knows it too. That?s when they?re going to do it,*I know it. Do I let them fuck? Do I want to stop them? Shall I just imagine...?I went and sat on the patio and watched Allen and Lilly. They weren?t obvious but I could tell, there was some kind of connection and I knew what it was. I was feeling sick and told Lilly I needed to go home before I threw up. I tried to leave her at the party but she resisted and drove me home.*On the way home, she got some Seven-Up to calm my stomach. Just like a ?good wifey.?I drank some and went to bed.*I know she?s going to do it while I?m in Oakland, I know it. I?ve let them get this far, shall I stop it before they go all the way and fuck? Hell, my cock is leaking. My cock wants them to do it.*My mind is picturing her on our bed, naked. He?s lying next to her kissing and sucking her tits. I can see her writhing and hear her whispering ?yes yes allen? just like she does for me. Now he?s kissing down her body and now a pillow under her ass and he?s licking her pussy.*I can see her tensing, tensing, and then spasming. She came for him, under his mouth and tongue. Now, she?s pulling him up and she?s saying, ?fuck me, your cock, fuck me, make Chris, my cuckold.? I watch as his cock penetrates her.*I came in my underwear. I made a huge mess.*Monday morning, I checked my phone, and there were several text messages. One was checking on me, presumably to see if I?m still well enough to go on my trip to Oakland.*The next was from Allen, ?Shall we meet at my house or yours? I?d prefer yours. But you decide. I want one day together, all day. I can do it either Wednesday or Thursday. I want my cock in your pussy and your ass. I want your mouth again too. I loved coming into your mouth, with you swallowing my cum.?Lilly responded, ?At our house, I want it to happen in our, his bed. I want, no need your cock taking me there. Come over at seven, and I?ll take Thursday off. Chris won?t be back until seven, I?ll need you to leave by five so I can clean up.?When I saw that, my cock was hard and I wanted to jack off. I pulled my cock out so I could, but stopped. Jacking off to my wife making a date to cuck me, that was just too much like wanting it. I didn?t want it, I knew I didn?t.She's going to do it. She?s going to cuckold me, and she wants to do it in my house, and in our bed. I can stop that.*Yeah, I can stop that, I couldn?t stop Allen from face fucking her when I was right there watching. Hell, just picturing it is making me hard, Hell I can?t stop picturing her laying there eager for this cock to make me a cuckold.*Do I even want to stop them? What am I?*I can go to Oakland and stay, I can confront Lilly before I leave, or I can sneak back and watch.*I turned over and started caressing Lilly?s tits kissing them and my hands started moving down to her pussy caressing her there. I removed her nightgown and then I pulled her over me and slipped my cock into her. ?Lilly, I love seeing you like this, naked, making love. I don?t want to ever quit.?I came in her and I pulled her onto izmir otele gelen escort me. I sighed then said, ?I love you. Forever.?She didn?t reply and I realized she was thinking about Wednesday evening instead of now, making love to me.*This is the last time I?m going to make love to my wife. It?s the last time she makes love to her husband. From now on, it?s going to be cuckold and cuckoldress having sex.I got out of bed and got and took a shower, crying. I?d decided: no sex until I got back, if then; I was going to stay in Oakland, and I was going to pretend I didn?t know.I cleaned up and stopped crying in the shower got dressed and left for work. I did include a half-assed kiss.I got my work done and confirmed my meeting. I was all set. When Lilly got home she tried to start sex but I wasn?t interested. I?d started heating leftovers and I had enough for both of us and we had a very quiet dinner.*My only explanation was some problems had to be solved at the meeting, not very convincingly though.*In the morning I got up early and left before Lilly got up with another half-assed kiss.*The Wednesday meeting went well but was interesting enough to keep my thoughts on business. Instead of going to dinner with a few of the other people like usual I begged off and went to my hotel.*I had dinner at the hotel and got to my room before seven. I went and washed up then lay down waiting until I no longer was just Lilly?s husband, I was her cuckold husband.*I impulsively decided to call Lilly, at seven-o-five. If Allen was on time it might give him enough time to undress her.?Hi Lilly, I?m in my room, wishing you are here. How was work???Chris, um, normal I guess, no special problems ah, I?m going into the kitchen and fix something for dinner uh, was there something you needed? Why you called??I replied, ?Um, I?ve been in a bad mood for a while and I?m sorry. I wanted to say I?m sorry and I love you.??Oh, ah, yes I?ve noticed it the last few days. I c-could tell ? could tell. Thanks for calling and let ? letting me know. I?ve got something on the stove I?ve got to go. Uh to go. Stir it. Bye uh, Chris. ?I stood there looking at my phone.He?s there, if I?d waited five more minutes he?d have had his cock in her, Lilly. He may have her against the wall right now, pulling her panties down, unless she waited for him naked. By now his cock is plundering her pussy.*I can see her, against the wall, her arms around him, kissing him, his cock moving inside her, hell, taking her from me. I can hear her as she?s whispering his name, ?Allen, Allen your cock, is taking me. I want your cum, your cum will finish cuckolding Chris. It will take me from Chris. I?m yours to fuck, so fuck me, cum in me. Make Chris my cuck.?I could even hear Allen as he came, ?I?m coming in you, you?ve been completely fucked, you?ve, we?ve cuckolded him. I own your pussy, your ass, and your mouth to fuck.?I couldn?t stop myself as I jacked off hearing them talking. All night I kept hearing them as they exulted in making me a cuck. Seeing them as they fucked and fucked.*I was exhausted as I got ready for Thursday?s meeting. I was able to excuse myself at one which was a late lunch. I headed home early but stopped at a coffee shop about five minutes from home and waited. I drove by home a few times and there was a strange car in front, Allens.*As I waited, I was thinking.What do I do now? Should I go in and confront them, or come in at my regular time and give her a chance to clean up? I want to confront them but I won?t. I know I won?t. I?ve backed down too many times, I?ll just continue playing my role as the unsuspecting, sucker, cuckold.*I?d love to be able to see Lilly trying to clean up before I showed up.* I decided to have a late lunch and just show up at seven likes she expects.*When I go home, the bed is made, the room?s picked up, and it smelled fresh. When Lilly came out of the bathroom, she looked almost normal. She looked just a little fucked, her lips are puffy and I think I see some light marks on her neck.*I gave her a light hug and evaded a kiss from her. ?Did you have a good time while I was gone, anything exciting??Her response was noncommittal, in the extreme.She put the dishes in the dishwasher and turned to me. ?Uh, Chris, I met Allen yesterday, and well, I invited him over for dinner ? um Friday dinner."I looked at her and replied, ?Allen? Do we know an Allen? What about his wife?"Lilly looked uncomfortable but answered, ?Yes we?ve met him at several of the parties we?ve gone to. He?s single so doesn?t have a wife. He seems nice and ? uh anyway I invited him at six thirty.??Friday? That?s tomorrow, right? Not next week? Ok then, well maybe we?ll get to know each other then.?I Buca escort bayan wasn?t hungry, so Lilly ate something, and I watched tv for a bit, then went to bed by nine.*So they are going to tell me at dinner tomorrow. She needs Allen?s support to tell me. What I want to do is escape the whole thing, by leaving tonight. Just pack some things and leave. Well, I?ve gone to bed, I?ve decided not to do that.*Tonight after she?s gone to sleep or tomorrow at noon, pack my clothes and not come back? I can see them waiting for me to come home from work while I?m sitting down to a nice dinner somewhere.*That?s what I want to do, that?s what I should do. That?s what I know I won?t do. Hell.Lilly came to bed and cuddled next to me and I could hear her whisper, ?Chris, I love you, no matter what happens, I love you. Please remember that.I couldn?t help myself, I turned to her and held her, just held her as if I was still asleep. When I woke I was alone in bed and I could tell she?d had her shower.I went downstairs and she was making coffee. I walked behind her and fortified by what she?d whispered in bed, said, ?Lilly, tell me what going on. Don?t wait and make Allen tell me. We?ve been married for almost fifteen years, I deserve for you to tell me!?I held her then she made me sit at the table, and sat on my lap. ?Chris ? yes, there is s-something I need t-to s-say. Wednesday I ? um took ? let a l-lover, Allen, take me. I let him fuck me. God Chris, we fucked and we fucked until I made him leave so I could hide what we?d done. All night and most of Thursday we fucked.?I spent two hours hiding what we?d done. We did things I?ve never let you do and I loved doing it for him, to him. I still love you and want you and need you. We connect in a way he doesn?t, can?t understand. In some ways, I feel sorry for him. The intimacy we feel together, he?ll never understand, and Hell, be less because of it. Less of a real man.?He, I need something he provides, something a lover provides, I can?t explain in words. I need it though. Just like I need you. For him, I?m just someone to seduce, he?ll move on in a few weeks.*I can tell he?s going to want a lot of sex, in all kinds of ways, and I?m going to be sore. He?s going to mark me all over too. Chris, I?m going to love it, every mark, every time he hurts me, every time he forces me. That?s what I need from him. I?ll do everything he wants.?He?s coming tonight to f-fuck m-me. Fuck me with you, C-Chris watching as he does it. He w-wants you to put his c-cock in my p-p-pussy. He says it?s my cu-cunt, my cunt.*I want you, Chris, my h-husband to do it for us, for me. To let me know you understand, and still love me. No matter what we, Allen and I do, I?ll still love you. Whatever we have, Allen and I have, it's not love.?I stood up and ripped her nightgown off her, took my boxers off, sat back on the chair, and fucked her, as hard as I knew how. I felt her come just as I came and heard her whisper, ?Oh, Chris, yes.?I cleaned our mess and we took a shower together, got dressed, and had breakfast without mentioning either Wednesday or Thursday, or tonight until I left. As I left I kissed Lilly, like a lover's kiss, and I whispered to her, ?I?ll do whatever you need tonight, just tell me you need it. Whatever it is, tell me.When I got to work, I felt a lot better but still dreaded facing Allen.*When I got home, Lilly was finishing dinner and I went upstairs to change. When I finished, Lilly was dressed in a wrap-around, sari-style dress that I?d enjoyed taking off her. Presumably, she thought Allen would too.*When Allen came, Lilly greeted him with a passionate kiss. I was beginning to wonder if I?d be up to fulfilling my promise, except that my cock didn?t agree.*We looked at each other and my opinion was that a man who was in your house to fuck your wife didn?t warrant a handshake. Lilly smiled at us both and said, ?Let?s eat dinner first before uh, ? first??Allen was of the opinion that I?d be interested in what he was intending to do with Lilly. ?Lilly says you know why I?m here, we?ve already cuckolded you, while you were in Oakland. I?m here to show you, to do it so you can watch.*?I want you to viscerally know I?m screwing her, and that I can do it any time I warned and anyway I want. You?re her cuckold, I?m her master. I?m also doing it so she realizes that you are giving her body, her complete body to me to use any way I want, we want.*?You?ll see her do, we?ll do things, she won?t do for you. You?ll find that you enjoy watching us do them. I certainly will.By the time he got that out, we?d finished eating. I gathered the dishes and took them into the kitchen. By the time I finished cleaning up he had her on his lap caressing her.He was murmuring in her ear, loud enough that I could understand, ?Lilly, I?d like to do it, I want to fuck you on the table. He?ll be able to really see it happen and we?ll leave a mess on the table for C-Chris.?He looked at me and asked, ?You want me to take Lilly, don?t you? You hate your self but you want to see my cock in her pussy, don?t you?